This past week has been a bit hit and miss Crohn's wise. Work has been a bit easier as i'm slowly remembering how to do my job. Thankfully it's also been fairly pressure and stress-free and really the only one putting pressure on me is myself. Learning to accept I can't do some things as easily as I used to before I became ill and that I have to take things a lot easier has been a bit of a chore.
Sometimes even carrying the shopping back to the house makes me feel like an absolute weakling, and the Nicholls family trait of acting like a martyr when it comes to illness occasionally comes into play and I start punishing myself for my own shortcomings.
One of the most frustrating things about Crohn's is the unpredictability of it. I can feel fine in the morning, make plans, look forward to the day ahead then have a bite of lunch and feel awful. Then the only place I want to be is in my bed under the covers feeling sorry for myself. Obviously in most cases this is far from possible and I just have to carry on regardless. Come to think of it, there really should be a law passed making it compulsory to have beds situated in alloted areas around the globe to be used in Crohn's-related-snoozing-emergencies. Bear in mind I haven't really thought this idea through and there is a high chance this could be taken advantage of. Mainly by homeless people and nymphomaniacs alike :(
Things are much better now than they were this time last year when I was in constant pain. Now it's just occasional depending on my mood/what I eat/the days activities/stress levels etc etc.
I can pretend that i'm 'normal' most of the time now, which Crohn's or no Crohn's is always a novelty.